I have fallen prey to the "my space users" the drug actics that they are using myspace and all... I am just playing

this is my url:

http://www.myspace.com/oxymoron_x3

merry christmas guys!

xoxo
AyCie

Happy 13th months to me and Logan!!!

I got presents from my rad awesome friends.

Marcy:
A locket
Chocolate sucker
Cool Neon Pink Nail Polish

Nicole:
Necklace
Ring
Scarf

Mickie:
A "New Dad" Ribbon
Painted me a picture with a puppy
Berrets

i think that is all. Forgive me if I forgot anything you guys gave me so much. I feel bad now, I only got you guys like one thing. *sniffles* I make it up to you guys.

Yep so tomorrow is X-mas...yippie. Lets pretend like I am excieted cause so far Christmas sucks.

My mom is greedy and my dad is a prick and I have spend time with my familey that mirror them perfectly. *shakes head*

Why can't people just let sleeping dog lie.

The going price for home
by Prize fighter inferno

And I've paid the price of solitude with wish to worry while you're away,
With all grace to allow my hand the travel & worth here across your face,
I love you more than you could know,
In those eyes you hide it well I think you do,
As I turn the wheels that round the ground across the Never,
Here against the Grave,
Now I've lost the only thing that matters to me life,
Is this the dream?
Here I go, I'm on my way home now,
To you,
And it hurts to hear you feel.

P.s what do you guys think of this picture I made?
http://img215.imageshack.us/img215/7319/liryg9.jpg

let me know.

I will talk later.
xoxo

AyCie <thanks Encie and Emjay for the cool name!

Staied with my lettuce on Frizzle Friday cause it was daddy Mike's birfday.

Twas fun, but made me tired lol.

Went to ze mall on saturday morn' and got Logan another X-mas gift (can't go wrong with this one I know it)

Zen me and me love went to get pretzles and candy canes and then we came home and feel ashleep and didn't get to make our Ginger Bread Cabin. :'(

So we are going to do that today when my man gets over here.

Yep so ta'.

ZOMBIE
The cranberries

Another head hangs lowly,
Child is slowly taken.
And the violence caused such silence,
Who are we mistaken?

But you see, it's not me, it's not my family.
In your head, in your head they are fighting,
With their tanks and their bombs,
And their bombs and their guns.
In your head, in your head, they are crying...

In your head, in your head,
Zombie, zombie, zombie,
Hey, hey, hey. What's in your head,
In your head,
Zombie, zombie, zombie?
Hey, hey, hey, hey, oh, dou, dou, dou, dou, dou...

Another mother's breakin',
Heart is taking over.
When the vi'lence causes silence,
We must be mistaken.

It's the same old theme since nineteen-sixteen.
In your head, in your head they're still fighting,
With their tanks and their bombs,
And their bombs and their guns.
In your head, in your head, they are dying...

In your head, in your head,
Zombie, zombie, zombie,
Hey, hey, hey. What's in your head,
In your head,
Zombie, zombie, zombie?
Hey, hey, hey, hey, oh, oh, oh,
Oh, oh, oh, oh, hey, oh, ya, ya-a...

xoxo-
Ariel

Ugh.

*sticks hand into stomach and pulls out the massive pile of guts (small intestinse, large intestines, kidneys, liver, stomach, OVERIES!!! ect..) *

There that feels better.

I love you Logan
--Ariel

I have tried to type this 3 times and each time my computer froze or messed up or something. It was like it didn't want me to do this but I sat back and told it to straighten up and fly right because I was going to do this even if I had to write it out and send it to everyone who reads this thing. They would know what I have to say, that I am sorry for the way I have been acting lately. I have noticed that alot of people have been pulling out my bad things and I realized it was because that is all they every see. I was hurt alot last year and then I decided I was going to  toughen up. I didn't mean to let it get out of hand the way it did. It ran me over causing me to loose the very piece of myself that I actually respect. I know I am a beautiful, caring, and loving person but when I lost this piece of me to my hatred it caused me to become bitter with myself, thus I took it out on other people because I had no where else to put it. And for those I have hurt I am sorry. But more so I have a few people I would personally like to apologies to:

James I know I have been a real bitch to you and I just really wanted to say I am sorry. I know it is a little late but better late then never. I understand that you where just trying to help Logan that night and that proves how great his friends are and how great of a friend I gave up for my selfish pride. I was stupid and I only ask for you forgiveness but if you don't want to give it to me I completely understand.

Olivia. Hunny, you know what? This was truly senseless wasn't it. You where trying to protect the one you love and I understand that. I just jumped back because I felt like I was being cornered. All of the sudden everyone was blaming me for caring about where Logan went. You have to truly understand I am not attempting to dictate his life I was simply voicing my opinion to him about how bad I didn't want him to go. But thats behind us now. Everything is okay between us, well me and him and I wanted to say sorry about jumping on you. You where only trying to help. And like I told James I don't expect you to forgive me if you don't want to that is solely your choice.

Elizabeth George. Girl you know what I think this pretending your not alive thing is ridiculous isn't it. I apologize and except you apology for the past. You know what you did and you feel sorry for it. It's not like everyone one can change them selves. I have just done it so many times it is getting easier. You are who you are and you did what you did but I can't hold you solely responsible, cause it takes two to tango. You where one one of my best friends and it just hurt so bad that my friend did that to me. But now all they are is memories, and I can't live in memories because I will never get to walk in the future. I forgive you. Now don't take this as oh well she forgives me and we are going to be best friends, sadly no that is not how I work. You know what you did and you hurt me pretty deep so bad that it has yet to scar over and I am going to have alot of trouble ever finding the strength to trust again if ever. And i am sorry it has to be this way but I would rather acknowledge you then treat you like a piece of crap because that isn't me. You did terrible things well so what so have I we move on. Thats what my life is about learning and then moving on. Again I except your apology

I am not really such a bad person and I am promising to myself and to everyone else I am going to rebuild myself and prove that I am not the bitch I made myself out to me. That's just not me. I am tired of holding grudges and tired of hating people, like I said life is just to short to waste on those petty things. People will be people and there is nothing I can do but be that person I used to be. I used to listen but I have become defend and blind to peoples pain that I was causing. I once helped them with that now all I do is cause it. But no more, I am tired of being a bitch.

Logan I love you and even though you didn't really help me all that much with your words your silence posed more help then you can imagine.
xoxo-Ariel